I tell you "I'm fine"
"I'm just tired"
"I'm okay"
You nod and accept it.
I say I'm not an actor.
But sweetie I was born to play this part.
I smile.
I laugh.
I flirt.
But shut the curtains.
Close the doors.
And you wouldn't believe the person I really am.
Scars litter my body.
Fingernails bitten and torn at.
Eyes deprived of sleep.
I'm insecure.
Anxious.
Numb.
I don't feel love.
I'm easily angered.
And what angers me the most is how there are so many more demons but I can't seem to put them into words.
I hate pretty much everything.
I don't want to kill myself.
But I don't want to be alive.
Every cut I make
I wish the blade would accide
I tell you "I'm fine"
"I'm just tired"
"I'm okay"
You nod and accept it.
I say I'm not an actor.
But sweetie I was born to play this part.
I smile.
I laugh.
I flirt.
But shut the curtains.
Close the doors.
And you wouldn't believe the person I really am.
Scars litter my body.
Fingernails bitten and torn at.
Eyes deprived of sleep.
I'm insecure.
Anxious.
Numb.
I don't feel love.
I'm easily angered.
And what angers me the most is how there are so many more demons but I can't seem to put them into words.
I hate pretty much everything.
I don't want to kill myself.
But I don't want to be alive.
Every cut I make
I wish the blade would accide
Want to know why I hate myself?
The scars that won't fade.
Fat that won't melt.
And calluses on my heart all whisper the secrets to it.
The things that were said
Names that have been called
And loves that didn't last
all have their place
in my box of hate.
When I was younger I couldn't fit in anywhere.
Too weird for the preps and a poser to the rebels.
Both sides have called me fake, stupid, fat, worthless, shit, cunt, and faggot.
I've had "Weak", "Fat", and "Stupid" cut into my legs.
I didn't know who I was.
The only thing I knew was the names I was given.
I would cry myself to sleep
(I still do)
I remember how I decided
that if I ev
Ello I'm Ivory or BB. I love art of course and I'm constantly trying to improve. I'll do requests so shoot me a message if you want a drawing done. Critics are always welcome.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
MCR, Vocaloids, The Used
Favourite Books
Harry Potter series
Favourite Writers
J.K. Rowling
Favourite Games
Assassin's creed
Tools of the Trade
Pencil and paper, acrylic paints, and my wacom bamboo pen tablet
You and I wake up naked. Using Four words only, what would you say to me?
Note: if you comment, you must copy and paste this to your journal.
So yeah I'm going to do a clean up of my gallery. Don't worry I won't delete everything but A LOT is going to be put in the scraps.
I REPEAT!
NOTHING WILL BE DELETED
IF YOU CAN'T FIND A PICTURE OR DRAWING IN MY REGULAR GALLERY
LOOK INTO MY SCRAPS
IF YOU STILL CAN'T FIND IT DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK!
kthxbye